The Countdown

I have 35.5 days left before I meet my baby girl...who finally has a name! Margaret Elizabeth, we will call her Maisie.  Margaret and Elizabeth are both family names, and more directly each is a part of mine and Chrissy's given name.  So, why this name? Mostly, because I love Maisie...but also because I can tell in-utero that she is going to have all the fire, spunk and drive that Chrissy and I have...God Help Me.

But, enough about her name.

I have just over a month to prepare for Maisie.  The house isn't ready, her stuff isn't washed, my stuff isn't washed, she currenlty has nowhere to sleep...AND Christmas is just over a week away.  But mostly, I am not ready.  I know God will give me all the tools I need for her, just as he did with Logan, but I find myself asking Him how there is enough Love in the world for me to love her the way I do Logan.  I know I will. I KNOW I will...but that is because I tell myself I will.  He is my angel, my baby and the tiny human who made my heart grow exponentially.  How and wehre can more of that kind of love come from??  I am not sure if I am ready to share me with two kids, because I love being 100% Logan's. 

But, God has already given this ability to love to my sweet child...he runs around hollering his sisters name.  He calls her name at my belly in the morning to wake her up (which is cute now, but won't be when she learns to sleep), and "knocks" on my belly to tell her that he is out there.  If that isn't God-like, I don't know what is.

So, it is with great trepidation t hat I say, I am not going to worry.  I am just going to countdown to her arrival and anxiously await the Tornado we will call Maisie...